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[mynameisallen]

[Since Allen came out of the luggage carried he had a good number of questions some of which have at least been answered by looking around. Knowing certain truths that he is willing to keep to himself and pretend that everything is awesome while in reality, he wasn't doing so great because of it.

But for the time being, he decided to at least play the game of catch up for other things.]

So... I don't know how long I've been gone for so... Is there anyone who is okay with telling me what has been going on? I assume I missed the mission since I see mentions of it, but considering I wasn't here... I don't actually know what is going on.

[He pauses, he wanted to pretend everything was okay on his end even with the lack of knowing what day it was or what was going on, but he figured he would at least ask.]

I do have another question. Not as important, but for those of you who've ever... How do I put it... [Words on this subject were not his area of expertise.] Developed romantic feelings for someone who then leaves. How do you manage that?

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[dreamtamer]

I'm glad you're back.

[Takato's smile, while genuine, was definitely more subdued than normal. The mission had been hard on him.]

Yeah, there was a mission. We went to help a city, and I guess a lot happened. Lots of people saw illusions of things from home, I think.

[mynameisallen]

Okay, so illusions were a thing.

[Is Allen going to be somewhat glad he never went... probably because there was a lot he could see that he might not want others to see, or really want to have to explain all that much. But he still feels bad for not having been there to help.]

I assume though they weren't necessarily a good thing for everyone? Were you okay at least? [His words were at least genuine, he wanted to know and if not then at least someone one could talk to maybe.]

[dreamtamer]

I'm doing better.

[He'd been talking a lot to Guilmon trying to work through everything that happened. It helped.]

At the end of it the illusions got really strong, and they showed us what we were the most afraid of. Some of it... I think it got really bad for some people.

[mynameisallen]

[Illusions of things people are most afraid of. Yeeep, Allen deep down feels a bit of relief at not being on this mission. But he also feels awful for not being there to help and the fact people actually went through that, which comes more to the top than feeling a tiny bit of relief considering the things he fears.]

The worlds never seem to be easy for us, so I guess this was no except. Except much worse. I just hope people have those they can talk to. That is something I had to learn that talking about stuff does help.

[He wasn't sure he was a good person to talk to himself, but he would like to think he could be someday.]

I am also someone people can come to if they need someone to talk as well.

[dreamtamer]

I think talking about it helps a lot. [He offers a weak smile.]

For me, I guess it brought up some memories that I didn't know still bothered me.

[mynameisallen]

Still bothered you? I assume you thought you moved passed it but this mission brought it up again?

[dreamtamer]

"Mmm, something happened a while ago. But there was so much going on then, I guess I just tried to forget about it because there were so many important things I needed to do. I didn't realize it still bothered me that much."

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[blitzcheer]

Hey, Al. How about I come join you? Where you at?

[ Not that he really knew what to say for that last topic, but hey, it'd be good to see the guy, check up on him and all. ]

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[mynameisallen]

Al?

[He's not used to nicknames like that. Moyashi was the only one he ever got, really and that was pretty much an insult.]

I am currently in the cinema carriage. I figured I'd try and watch something for once. Though not sure where to actually start.

[blitzcheer]

Not a fan? [ But, regardless- ] I'll be there. Maaaybe a...sports movie?

[ Wow Tidus.

not predictable at all. ]

[mynameisallen]

It's not that. Just use to nicknames being more insults. So a positive one is just odd to me.

[But he chuckles he is not at all surprised because how can he be. But he honestly didn't know what any of the sports movie were or why they were good. But then again Allen barely went to this carriage.]

Okay, I will try and find a good one. Not that I know what would be good.

[blitzcheer]

I'll be looking forward to seeing your pick! Be there in a minute or five!

[ And now Tidus will leave so he can actually start getting there. What's time on the train? A mystery, that's what, but Tidus eventually makes his way inside through the door closest by the screen, popping out his earbuds, but searching out for if Allen would still be by the ICP console or sitting.

Either way- ] 'Sup! Got any interesting answers yet? Heard you talking, but I was listening to some tunes.

[mynameisallen]

Not sure if you might like what I pick because I know nothing about sports.

[So for all he knows it could be the worst thing ever and he didn't want that, but hey he has to learn. But due to his uncertainty, he stills deemed to be looking through what was there even after the other arrived. Changing his mind now and again. But within a moment he glances over.]

On my questions? Not exactly yet. I mean I don't mind if I do, that's fine.

[blitzcheer]

You got a sports movie? Nice!

[ Hey, went for the recommendation, pal!! Nice nice. Tidus rests against the side of a chair close to Allen, keeping standing while he continues to flick through the selection. ]

Well, I can tell you about the mission first. Something there was making illusions, like some kinda...guy? [ Very helpful. ] I mean, that was at the end of the mission, but before that we were in a city, and they were having them too. You remember that space station, with the big tree computer and the fake animals attacking people? The illusions were like those. First they were in the computers inside the city, and then they -- weren't. They were outside the city.

[ He says, shaking his head. ] None of us had a good way of dealing with breaking the illusions. I mean, not totally. And the illusions were showing us some pretty personal stuff, so a lot of people got shaken after everything.

[ Not a good time at all. ]

[oncedriven]

Ah, so you're our missing roommate.

[Hi, Allen - if you've stopped by the room, you've no doubt noticed the two new names. And possibly the chill in the air that seems to have settled into the space surrounding one of their beds.]

Sorry about the cold. We're managing the best we can, but you might want to get some extra blankets somewhere. Jade... tends to be a little leaky.

[crimsonsnow]

Hey.

[He doesn't deny it, but.]

[mynameisallen]

If I was the only one missing, then yes.

[He probably did notice and assumed that was going to be the new normal. But hey he is used to things happening so he isn't all that surprised either.]

If I need them I will, thank you for the heads up.

[oncedriven]

It's only fair to warn you, since we seem to be stuck with each other.

[And, well, fairness matters.]

If you need a hot water bottle or something for your bed, I can probably help with that, but I'm not sure how much good it will do when we're all asleep.

[mynameisallen]

I'll be fine, really. I'm an expert on how to handle the cold.

[He once slept in a tent during cold weather. He knows what he is doing.]

I use to travel a lot after all.

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[irrationally]

What have you been up to while we were gone?

[ It's a joke, Allen, a joke! A dry, deadpan joke, but a joke all the same, considering the answer to that is obvious - he's been gone, spirited away by the train, as happens to people at times.

But the joke is more in response to the last thing he says. Romantic feelings? Allen, what have you been up to in that regard. ]

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[mynameisallen]

[He could at least see the joke. So he was at least going to return.]

Off on some solo adventure~ [Yes, that was the way he was going to answer it.]

Though how are you anyway?

[irrationally]

[ She exhales.

It's a deep breath, more than a sigh. ]

It's most likely better to not talk about that. [ Aka: she's not doing too great, but discussing that so publically is not exactly something Alice enjoys doing. ] You should feel glad that you got to skip this mission.

[mynameisallen]

Not talk about it, got it?

[He knows it means it was very bad either way. But being told he should feel glad he wasn't there was enough to give pause. Allen feels bad he wasn't there because he just is that type of a person and always wants to help... so now he has to wonder.]

Will it be something you will talk about in person?

[irrationally]

If you insist.

[ It's not like she likes talking about it, but if Allen insists on knowing what the mission was all about, it's not like she's going to throw some huge stink about it either. She'll just leave out all the personal details she doesn't want to share. ]

Are you telling me to meet up somewhere?

[mynameisallen]

Only if you want to. You know me, won't force it if you don't want to.

[He felt like he would be a bad friend if he did and for him, his friendships mean a lot to him.]

Just want to make sure your okay. Plus Timcampy wants to see you, I can send him your way though.