voidtreckernet | Video; Llama 13

[Since Allen came out of the luggage carried he had a good number of questions some of which have at least been answered by looking around. Knowing certain truths that he is willing to keep to himself and pretend that everything is awesome while in reality, he wasn't doing so great because of it.

But for the time being, he decided to at least play the game of catch up for other things.]

So... I don't know how long I've been gone for so... Is there anyone who is okay with telling me what has been going on? I assume I missed the mission since I see mentions of it, but considering I wasn't here... I don't actually know what is going on.

[He pauses, he wanted to pretend everything was okay on his end even with the lack of knowing what day it was or what was going on, but he figured he would at least ask.]

I do have another question. Not as important, but for those of you who've ever... How do I put it... [Words on this subject were not his area of expertise.] Developed romantic feelings for someone who then leaves. How do you manage that?

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I'm glad you're back.

[Takato's smile, while genuine, was definitely more subdued than normal. The mission had been hard on him.]

Yeah, there was a mission. We went to help a city, and I guess a lot happened. Lots of people saw illusions of things from home, I think.

Okay, so illusions were a thing.

[Is Allen going to be somewhat glad he never went... probably because there was a lot he could see that he might not want others to see, or really want to have to explain all that much. But he still feels bad for not having been there to help.]

I assume though they weren't necessarily a good thing for everyone? Were you okay at least? [His words were at least genuine, he wanted to know and if not then at least someone one could talk to maybe.]

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I'm doing better.

[He'd been talking a lot to Guilmon trying to work through everything that happened. It helped.]

At the end of it the illusions got really strong, and they showed us what we were the most afraid of. Some of it... I think it got really bad for some people.

[Illusions of things people are most afraid of. Yeeep, Allen deep down feels a bit of relief at not being on this mission. But he also feels awful for not being there to help and the fact people actually went through that, which comes more to the top than feeling a tiny bit of relief considering the things he fears.]

The worlds never seem to be easy for us, so I guess this was no except. Except much worse. I just hope people have those they can talk to. That is something I had to learn that talking about stuff does help.

[He wasn't sure he was a good person to talk to himself, but he would like to think he could be someday.]

I am also someone people can come to if they need someone to talk as well.

I think talking about it helps a lot. [He offers a weak smile.]

For me, I guess it brought up some memories that I didn't know still bothered me.

Still bothered you? I assume you thought you moved passed it but this mission brought it up again?

"Mmm, something happened a while ago. But there was so much going on then, I guess I just tried to forget about it because there were so many important things I needed to do. I didn't realize it still bothered me that much."

That makes sense. But now that it was presented you understand that it bothered you. I assume you understand why it bothered you?

Yeah, I think I understand why. [He sighs.] I'm just not sure what to do about it now.

[He paused, he honestly wouldn't be sure how to deal with something like this really.]

I'm not sure what one can really do since I assume it's not something you can confront anyway, so the only other thing is talking... I think.

[ Takato considers this seriously. ]

Do you think I should try talking to someone besides Guilmon? He was there too, so he understands. But he isn't sure what to do either.

It never hurts. Sometimes it helps to have someone who doesn't know.

[Allen understood how good talking to someone who understands can help, but he knew you could get something completely different talking to someone who knows nothing.]

Maybe you'll get told something you never thought of.

[ Takato considers this. It felt a little strange to think of telling a stranger all about all the things that had been worrying him. But would it really be easier? ]

Maybe... I think maybe, I would rather talk to a friend.

That's still someone.

[Still worked with his own thought process and honestly a friend was more that he was thinking about considering he always felt better after talking to Alice who knew nothing about his life.]

Which friend do you think might help you more?

I don't really know. I kind of feel like... to talk about it I'd have to explain some of what happened in my world. It got complicated, really complicated at the end. But I'm not very good at explaining.

Maybe try and think of other ways to explain on things you struggle on. I mean, like people draw and such, so would picture help explain?

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