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voidtreckernet2021-12-31 11:43 pm
jingyeets) wrote in voidtreckernet2021-12-31 11:43 pm
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video | poi one, afternoon
Hey, Idia! Anyone who knows how to technology in a smart way.
( Here's Jingyi, holding up an e-reader turned toward the ICP camera. One can read that it says, "CONNECT TO PRINT." He has no idea what to do with that, can understand what it functionally does, but: )
How do you get this to do the thing where it can make physical copies of the stuff we were sent over by Ten-Nank?
( Here's Jingyi, holding up an e-reader turned toward the ICP camera. One can read that it says, "CONNECT TO PRINT." He has no idea what to do with that, can understand what it functionally does, but: )
How do you get this to do the thing where it can make physical copies of the stuff we were sent over by Ten-Nank?
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Yeah, this is kind of ridiculous, right?
( g r i n s )
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[ It is, but Inigo is never going to admit that. Not when he experiences every single emotion ever so intensely. ]
Don't make fun of my heartfelt feelings!
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Over turning me off?
( ... by turning the screen off, okay )
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.. now the moment of being touched is seriously gone.
[ Bye, bye, single moment of actually feeling happy and loved on the train..
Inigo only wants cuddles, and yet all he gets are struggles. ]
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Might work better to be touched in person. Fewer screens to mess with that way.
( which is a little teasing, in that it was Inigo who had the whole screen thing happen, but also Jingyi isn't oblivious to emotional states. How careful he is with them depends, and right now... )
I don't bother with what I don't mean, Inigo. If you're going to need reminders, let me know. I haven't had years to learn your tells.
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It's a good thing, since it means he's being a little less dramatic and whiny, if not just for the moment. But it's also dangerous at the same time, since it can mean that Inigo is truly sinking into his own feelings for a moment here - and when Inigo's head is such a mess, that's not always a good place to be. ]
Why would I ask someone to remind me.. [ He finally says, mumbling, almost near grumbling, really. Mostly because he's being pouty.
Because he's meant to be the strong one, so he can't just ask for reminders. It wouldn't be right.
But at the same time - he definitely needs them. Like a traveler in the desert might need water. That desperately. ]
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( his tail's since dropped out of the frame, since he's not in the more cat-like teasing mood he'd been in, and he's got incoming answers for his printing issues. )
Tell me what you need.
( on a public network but to be fair, most people seem to ignore what's chattered on over ICP )
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[ He's quiet again. But it's only natural, isn't it? When it's so hard for Inigo to talk about his needs - his actual needs, not just superficial whining about sweets or anything of the sort. Of course everything comes out slowly. Just it coming out at all is a small miracle. But he knows that Jingyi is absolutely the type to never let this go if he doesn't answer now, and..
Well. Maybe he owes one of his important friends.. some honesty.
The only upside is that Inigo did remember to keep the feed private when he connected it again. Inigo's sole blessing, before he starts saying very embarrassing things in front of everyone. Now only anyone who's in the carriage with Jingyi can hear the embarrassing stuff. ]
I just.. need to know I'm not alone.
[ He says it so softly, like he really is worried about other people hearing it. Inigo sounds so absolutely embarrassed at this point.
It makes him feel whiny. Needy. And definitely not in a good way. Who is he, to ask anyone for anything? ]
cw: narrative mention of emesis
He waits, studying Inigo through the ICP. Not for the first time he finds it a bit strange, this window into viewing people not here with you, and not bad, per say, but no less strange the more he's used to it. There's still some sense of distance, some boundaries, something he doesn't know how to explain, but it means he looks, and waits, and listens to the soft words.
Everyone has their own difficult things to admit. To face? To handle, one way or another. For Inigo, this is not a difficult one to understand in ways, once he hears it. )
Okay.
( In a sense, straightforward, but it follows in the same way that Jingyi thinks of when it comes to handling Sizhui when he's feeling vulnerable, or sick from boat travel, or sick because boats are about to be traveled. It's knowing what way to approach, what distraction to offer, what defense to make. What shoulder to offer, and when to hold one's hair back because the sickness wins sometimes, and nothing stays down.
He still is straightforward, but he moderates his tone too, brings it down to something softer so it doesn't carry, no sense of coddling, no sense of derision. He's obvious when those are the things he feels, just like he is for most anything he feels. Rarely does he see the need to curtail the transparency of his emotions. )
How would you like me to do that? What ways mean the most to you?
( Even more so an issue because what would make sense to him, what would be his choices made from his perspective and culture, have been blatantly poor matches for most everyone on this train. Most the time. Not always, but often enough. )
literally made me google emesis
[ It's not even like Inigo doesn't know, just instinctively, but putting it into words and saying it out loud is a new thing entirely.
It makes him swallow thickly. His throat feels dry, and he can feel his eyes instead starting to water. Inigo rapidly blinks a few times, hoping to cast aside the water before it can form into actual tears. He doesn't want to be crying dumb, emotional tears at a moment like this. ]
Just.. like.. what you did just now. I like those small reminders that I'm important to people. [ Because, by Naga, is it ever hard for Inigo personally to remember that when he doesn't have a shred of self-worth. ] And I like physical contact. Even if it's just-- holding hands. Or hugs. Or..
[ He sniffs, then lets out a groan, and rubs with one hand at his eyes. ]
Hold on. This is so dumb.
[ Him getting so emotional over this, that is. ]
I also like.. sleeping next to someone, so I know I'm not alone. Cuddling. That's why I got a room with Tidus.. [ So he didn't have to roomhop to a different friend each night for cuddles!! ]
alksdfj hahaahasdf i'm so sorry
( said softer, but factual. it's part of being a person of all emotions, not anything to be ashamed of; only in some circumstances would it be out of place. this isn't one of them, albeit jingyi is mistakenly wondering if this is broadcast to all carriages. (it's not, but he's not looking for the indicator that would tell him, this isn't full broadcast. he also throws the thought out; it's not really important.) )
Okay. Well... Taiki wanted a roommate for the same reason, so you're welcome to sleep where we are, anytime you feel like it. Not because you need to, but because you're welcome. I can work on the other stuff.
( a pause, and he rubs at the back of his neck. )
Does that include tail stuff?
( tail hugs, contact by tail, tails in laps—things which are admittedly more normal for him among his generation sect mates, but that he plays down around all humans in their tailless sad state of natural affairs. )
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But what follows is a little less expected. Maybe it shouldn't be, when Jingyi's tail is such an important part of him, but Inigo doesn't think about it often enough to have expected the question itself, apparently. ]
I mean.. If you want it?
[ This may be about his comfort here, but Inigo can't help but always try to look out for the comfort of others as well. ]
I'm sure not going to say no to that. I like physical contact of all kinds. [ Not that he's used to tail stuff - if not just because Nah is the only one with a tail back where he comes from, and she's not exactly the most physically affectionate person around.
Especially not with him. ]
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I have to think about not using my tail. It's easier to shift fully human otherwise.
( Because it's another appendage, so if he's reaching out or playing around or simply being in a non-formal context, his tail's as naturally a part of his body language as anything else. )
It's not really fair to you, since you can't respond in kind, but it's just... like another arm. Without fingers. And extra furry?
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So that's not the problem here. No, Inigo isn't worried about being snubbed, he's just worried about Jingyi's comfort!
As evidenced by him continuing with: ]
.. And I thought it was more comfortable for you to have your tail out.
[ Jingyi always moved that thing so freely and often whenever he had it out that Inigo just assumed that was the case. ]
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( he doesn't mean for that question to be answered, though with it, his tail appears on screen again, light blue tufted end waving around lazily. )
I do what's necessary, but trust me, you'll hear me complain when I have to put these and this away.
( A flick at his left horn for these, then a swish of his tufted tail for this. )
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At least Inigo is catching on to the fact that it is a question that isn't meant to be answered, which is why he waits for the other to follow up with the rest - and then Inigo almost seems to pout a little bit. ]
Then keep them out and come hug me with them! [ J-JINGYI, YOU B-BAKA!!
Also, the tail. He means hug him with the tail. Don't hug him with the horns, it sounds uncomfortable. ]
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( said with a nod. because he does know what Inigo means, since so far as he can tell Inigo is only an emotional masochist, not a physical one.
still, at some point he's going to have to headbutt him. he just will. )