voidtreckernet | Jelly day 16

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Jelly day 16

Who: Xingchen and you!
Where: Kitchen, dining car
When: Jelly 16, on platform day, today
What: Helping assemble a belated birthday party!

[With his vision and sight returned, Xingchen discover a simple joy of learning to cook again. To see food, working with food and utensils in the kitchen, he can feel being more useful. Wearing an apron, the kitchen is starting to smell really good, but he realized he needed help]

Hello? Hi, everyone. You know, I not good at aligning the days with the calendar, but I realized my birthday is actually last week on the 25th. While it was belated, I was exhausted from the last mission. I don't celebrate my birthday for years from where I'm from, considering I lived in poverty, so there wasn't much to eat.

I would like to assemble a lunch and dinner, a birthday party today. I haven't baked a cake yet, but this is where you can help. You can meet me in the kitchen. I'm looking to assemble ice cream as well.

If you like to eat, come a little later today to join me. It's on me and my treat.

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Once the cooking is done, collecting and carrying the food, the drinks, and desserts on a tray as he walks through the corridor carefully to the quiet car. Inside the quiet car, there's two benches and a table, easily moved so they can sit down to face each other.

"Here we are. Now we can eat quietly." After a few moments of mindfulness, he picks up his chopsticks to quietly eat.

He settles into the seat across from him and then takes his food, "Do we really have to eat quietly?" He isn't one to talk about a lot but he also isn't one to simply eat in silence either.

"What if I make sure you have to talk while you eat?"

He eats and nibbles in little pieces, "It's being mindful of the food we're eating, Xue Yang. When we show gratitude quietly, it feeds the body and the spirit better."

He's flustered a little. "What's there to talk about?" Xingchen doesn't think he's good at conversing. The man knows stories from books, verses of sutras, and the rules of the sect he memorized and never forgotten when he left as a teen. Being curious, "Is there a subject you're interested in Xue Yang?"

"I don't know, Daozhang. I just figured I could come up with something. How about...what do you want to do for your birthday besides cook?" Because shouldn't he do something fun? Xue Yang didn't really have any plans so harassing the man was his plans unless Xingchen wanted him to leave him alone. If that was the man's desire he would honor it even if he didn't want to.

Xingchen looks at him quizzically. He knew the man wanted nothing more than spending time alone in his presence. Otherwise, he wouldn't have agreed to come with him to the quiet car.

"A day of peace and spending time with you." He answered. "I'm not sure what to chat about other than the worlds we visited so far, reading what I read and studied in the books in the library, or after this, we can watch a movie together." Watching the movies in the cinema was a joy itself.

"I'll do whatever daozhang wants." Like a good little puppy, Xue Yang is going to behave himself and stick by Xingchen's side. "I don't want to chat about the worlds though." He's still a little annoyed by that last one and doesn't want to deal with thinking about it again now that it has finally been pushed out of his mind.

"I've only watched one movie." It involved bees and a train.

He's already doing, by living peacefully. "Oh, all right." He figured talking about it must be boring for him.

Thoughtfully, "You only watched one ever since you lived here? But there's a lot of interesting movies you could have watched." He said. "We can watch a movie together, how's that? What was that one movie you watched and what it's about?"

"Something about bees on a train. it was a little dumb.." And he didn't pay a lot of attention. He had sat down in a movie theater after being mentally tortured so his brain wasn't really on the film. He was at his most broken of moments.

So watching one with Xingchen will certainly be a better memory than that was. "I wasn't really in a good mood to watch it."

"I think bees are cute and if you watched that, then you must have a lot of patience." He's lightly teasing him a little bit, but he can see Xue Yang doesn't look happy talking about it.

"Okay, after we finished eating, let's go and find a movie that you and I may like and we watch together. How is that?"

"It's your birthday daozhang. You should pick whatever movie you want to see. Especially since it seems you have watched more of them then me."

Xue Yang doesn't necessarily have to watch the movie. He can simply sit there and enjoy being with Xingchen more then anything. They spend every day together and sleep in the same cabin so it isn't like he never sees the man. But Xingchen is the first person who had ever been kind to him and so he is happy to simply be with him all the time.

He realized Xue Yang just wanted to sit there and be by his side, and a part of him knows he's a loner, and he preferred being alone too. Once they're in the movie theatre and took a seat, and the movie start playing a cartoon of singing cats, he turned the volume down, so they could talk.

He talks to him whatever is on his mind, hoping to fill him with his thoughts. "The world is different when I am able to see and read. It's been dark for me for a very long time, so suddenly it felt like a light switch on. The world has more color, fuller, and alive."

He turns to him, "What makes you feel alive Xue Yang?"

Xue Yang listens to him talk and then relaxes in his seat as he thinks about that answer. There are several things that make him feel alive but some of that he wouldn't want Xingchen to hear about. The man trusts him, so he doesn't want to talk of some of his less then pure encounters.

"Fighting always makes me feel alive. But so does being on the train with you, Daozhang." He doesn't have this opportunity back home. But perhaps it isn't so much as feeling alive as it is being happy.

"Fighting does that, but it only brings people pain...unless you're out fighting monsters and robots." He said thoughtfully. "That happened last time when we were together too." He said very calmly, as he remembers his own death.

He realized Xue Yang may not know that or understand the gravity of the consequences at the time. He looks at him, "Try not to fight anymore. You only get hurt." That sound like worry and concern, but it's genuine.

After a few moments, when the music part of the movie is finished, and the movie continues playing, he turns to Xue Yang, open his arms to offer him a hug. "Xue Yang, you can hold me."

Xue Yang pouts a little when Xingchen tells him not to fight anymore. When on missions that is what he enjoys the most. Not being able to do so would make those missions far less fun. They would all end up feeling like the last one.

But when Xingchen opens his arms, his eyebrows shoot up a little in surprise. He has always behaved himself, not wanting to push the daozhang into too much. The man was trying to get used to new eyes and a new place and the truth about the things that Xue Yang had done.

This is like opening a door that Xue Yang has been standing behind, waiting for this moment. He tries to keep his excitement at bay as he moves closer and wraps his arms around Xingchen.

"Can I hold you whenever I want to, daozhang?"

He decides to open the door and gives him a second chance. He definitely feels he's a different man than he was back home a few months. He has long knew the truth, accepting it, and still he forgave him despite everything, and perhaps redeem him for as long the train will give them, even if that future is uncertain.

This felt nice when they hold each other and hug each other alone in the cinema. His friend's body is cool, but he is warmer and his arms are strong.

"Mm-hm. If you're not sure, you just need to ask and because I want to."

He relaxes into his arms, more interested in this then the movie on the screen. He is silent for a moment as he considers those words. To simply ask...for him to want him to hug him. There is so much more that he wants to do with Xingchen but he has moved slower then he has ever gone in his life. All those years together building to this point.

He smirks softly as he leans over to place a kiss on Xingchen's cheek. "What if I want to kiss you, daozhang?"

He starting to see another side of Xue Yang. More relaxed, dropping his guard, showing a softer side than the usual determination and focus when he does his mission.

He's flustered as he sat still. A part of him already knew how he feels and the feeling is returned. With a nod, with a look of anticipation, and perhaps nervousness that he felt his lips and throat suddenly dry, his heart rate speeding up as he felt a flush of warmth.

"You asked. So yes you may."

He grins and shifts slightly so that it makes it easier. He brings his hands up and places them on either side of Xingchen's face. He draws him close and presses his lips against the daozhang's. It's gentle at first then a little more enthusiastic as the other man doesn't pull away.

This can be his gift to Xingchen. He might not have a physical one, but being able to have this moment is what Xue Yang can give.

Feeling the hands on his face, he closes his eyes, he sat still and kisses him back tentatively. He knows he's asking a lot of Xue Yang and that he's trying his best. He appreciates the gentleness and he accepts his enthusiasm warmly.

It's a thoughtful gift. When the kiss breaks, he looks at him lovingly, his eyes are gentle, "Do you always want to hold me and kiss me like that?"

"Every second daozhang." He sees no point in lying to him. He has wanted to do that for a long time but he knows that if he simply jumped at any opportunity that it might have been met with resistance. The man needed time and Xue Yang had been willing to give it to him.

He is pleased with him and his kiss, so there's no resistance at all. Just acceptance.

The movie is finished and they're the only two people in the cinema. "I have all the time in the world. I was waiting for days since the winter faire. Do you feel that since then?"

"Since way before that daozhang. But you said you wanted time and so I waited until you were sure. Are you disappointed I didn't do so sooner?"

He grins, amused by the prospect that Xingchen may have been pining for him in a way. It makes it somehow more satisfying to have waited if that is the case.

"That's right because I'm waiting for my eyes to heal properly." He had waited too as he was very distracted by the festivities back then.

He thought about it. Lightly, "No. I needed more time and I think you do too. But...I like it. Especially when it's gentle." Suddenly he felt very shy. There's a tingling of heat from his lips and it sparks a warmth all over his body and a feeling, a mood that wants to be claimed. He realized he isn't wearing his robes with long sleeves, but a blue hoodie.

"You know, Xue Yang. I heard that the quiet car has curtains and it's soundproof if you want to go somewhere in private and continue. Here, someone can walk in..."

His eyebrow quirks upwards and he looks at the daozhang in surprise. The quiet car...was he that concerned that someone might see them kissing? He wondered if perhaps Xingchen is ashamed in the fact that Xue Yang wants to kiss him. Perhaps he doesn't want anyone to know. For a moment he is hurt.

But then he also wonders if perhaps the daozhang wants privacy for...other reasons. Because why else would he want something sound proof? It's not like kissing is a loud activity.

He feels his heart tremble a little at the thought. A smirk twitches at the corner of his lips. "What is it that you want to do in the quiet car, daozhang?"

Xingchen isn't worried and feeling ashamed at all. If anything, he looks calm. As if he has meditated on this before and he made his mind up. Xue Yang will discover the reason. He's very flustered, hiding his nervousness.

"I want to keep it a surprise. I'm in a good mood and if you are too, then..." His voice trails off. "I want to play hide and seek. If you can cover your eyes, count for a minute while I go run and hide in one of the quiet cars. If you can find me, then you can..."

He whispers close to his ear and nips on his earlobes, "Claim me and find me blindfolded. You might like that. I will too."

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