[Voice] Imagination 22

[ayao]

[He is tired and sad and more beside himself than he would like to admit.]

Xue Yang, answer me.

[That isn't how he wants to begin this broadcast, so he breathes in...and out.]

Has anyone seen Chifeng-Zun? I cannot find him and I know of no ill that has befallen him.

[Now, the part that really hurts.]

Huaisang, Zewu-Jun, I have failed you in not protecting him. I tried.

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[so_dark_a_road]

[ Curufin nods. He's not at all unfamiliar with murderous actions and intentions among people who should be allies! ]

In that case, I'm glad he didn't succeed. We don't need another murder on the train. His brother is Nie Huaisang, I take it. I only met him once, and he seems a very friendly and diffident sort of person. But people are complex, and you never really know what a person is capable of. You'd better be careful.

The others didn't tell you how Nie Mingjue will betray you in your future? So, that's why you decide to kill him. It's true, when love turns to hate, the deadliest forces in the human heart are unleashed.

[ayao]

I will try to...show him...that I mean him no harm. But that takes time and I'm not sure if he sees my actions. He lost his brother - the last of his kin - by my hands. I understand his reticence in giving me an audience.

[All of it hurts. Huaisang is someone he loves; someone he considers a friend. Now he feels the man's hatred.]

I can only imagine that I followed my father's orders and that said orders flew in the face of Mingjue's morals. I have long wanted to be accepted by my father.

I know that is impossible now.

[so_dark_a_road]

It would be difficult for him. But I think it may not be impossible. I have a similar situation in my own life. I caused or at least contributed to my cousin Finrod's death, and before that, I took his kingdom away from him. I met him and his sister Galadriel in another world, and I tried to reconcile with both of them. They were not very willing at first, but we were making progress when that world ceased to be viable.

[ People often think that only the victims feel pain. They don't know that the perpetrator does, too. ]

It is at least understandable, if you followed your father's orders in that future. Fathers and sons! [ He shakes his head. ] Is there ever any understanding how deep and complicated that relationship is?

When did you come to the conclusion that you will never be accepted by your father?

[ayao]

Thank you for giving me some hope. [That hope is what he clings to with all of his might and sanity. Without it, he feels like he has been torn to pieces and left to drift in the wind.]

My father has never accepted me. I am his bastard - one of many - and he left me to be raised in a brothel alongside my mother. He won't even give me his name. When I went to see him after her death, he blamed me for interrupting my brother's birthday celebration and kicked me down a long flight of stairs.

I could barely stand. Nie Mingjue took me under his wing then - he did not have to - and I have been loyal to him since. However if my father required something of me...

Something that would mean he would accept me...

I can see why I would be tempted.

[so_dark_a_road]

Where love and loyalty are concerned, hope is essential. You are very welcome, and if there is anything else I can do, just let me know.

Your father doesn't sound like a very compassionate man!

Yes, I can see how you would feel gratitude towards Nie Mingjue.

And I can see how you might, in your future, be tempted to accede to your father's request if that meant he would acknowledge you as his son and give you the acceptance and social position that being his son would entail. As I said, that relationship is complex and compelling, and a son can never really shut his heart to his father.

[ayao]

Thank you again, Lord Curufin. I offer you the same. [Though he feels useless at the moment.]

I do not think he ever knew compassion. [Jin Guangshan is one of the most selfish men in existence.] Nie Mingjue was his opposite. Is...his opposite.

But I must shut him out. For the safety of those around me. His influence over me is perilous and if I give into it, Nie Mingjue will die.