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[marriedanidiot]

 My son's dream I can corroborate. I, too, dreamt of wind and snow. Findekano, dear. Will you be alright?

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[utulien_aure]

It wasn't enough.

[ And too many faces flashed before his eyes. The ones who'd starved, the ones who'd frozen, the ones who'd drowned. The ones who'd simply stopped walking, or who had never emerged from sleep. The ones who'd died in avalanches, gasping for air, and the ones who'd died on orc-spears at the end, because they'd had to toss away their armor somewhere on the other side of the Sea.]

Nothing was ever enough. We grew clever and observant, we learned our environment. We sang songs to warm us and to keep the Ice closed under our feet, so it wouldn't thin under the heat of thousands of bodies, and we learned when one was more needed than the other.

But sometimes there was just nothing the rest of us could do, no matter how we tried. And we tried. Over and over....

[marriedanidiot]

Oh Finno...

[ She murmurs sympathetically and squeezes his hand ]

I am so sorry.

[utulien_aure]

I will be all right, you know. I did not lie.

[Despite his words, he squeezes back.]

In some senses, this is better than the snowfall earlier. It's far better when I have something to focus on than otherwise.

[marriedanidiot]

I know. But even so... I wish I could have done more, little nephew.

[ She smiles at him ] I am glad you are finding your own way through.

[utulien_aure]

We couldn't have asked that of you. Even if we were able to. It wouldn't be fair.

[Shaking his head]

In these circumstances, we all do what we must. That, I suppose, was a lesson from the Ice.

[marriedanidiot]

Even so...

[ She sighs and lets it go. Past is past, it cannot now be changed and no one wants to give Feanor Ideas about that anyway ]

Is there anything I can do now? [ Practicality matters more ]

[utulien_aure]

It's alright. I need some quiet, that's all.

[He's not going to directly ask she keep her brood away for now. It's a little unkind.]

[marriedanidiot]

Alright. [ She smoothes his hair back from his face and kisses his cheek fondly ]

I will keep my boys away. Unless you'd like me to send Maitimo?

[utulien_aure]

[He hesitates for a moment, but then nods.]

I would appreciate that.

[marriedanidiot]

I will send Maitimo to you when I find him then. And feel free to chase the others away! Makalaure and Feanaro, I think, know well enough to stay clear. I will talk to Atarinke.

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[utulien_aure]

[Fingon has been quite happy to avoid Feanor's presence in the time he's been on the train, and he's sure everyone else is happier they haven't met too.

He's somewhat sorrier about Kano, but at the end of the day his cousin did choose to throw a torch. Fingon can forgive, but it's still hard sometimes to forget.]

My thanks. And really, you needn't worry. I'll be fine.

yus

[marriedanidiot]

[ She ruffles his hair fondly as she leaves ]

You're family, dear. I always worry.