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voidtreckernet2022-04-24 08:00 pm
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Day 28 | Video
[It's late at night. Not quite the early morning but certainly later than you would normally see Romeo around.
The video turns on into the kitchen, Romeo is a little bit away from the ICP, stirring something in a bowl but he glances over, as if to check that the ICP is recording.]
Um hello everyone. I hope I don't wake anyone up with talking so late but I was in bed and thinking really really hard about some things and my mind wouldn't go to sleep so I came to bake cookies but I'm still thinking and sometimes when you got lots of big questions in your head it's a good idea to talk about it.
[He gets closer, bowl in hand as he keeps mixing.]
I was thinking about Osiga and all the people we saved but also how we left all their bodies and I guess that's okay because we brought the bit that was properly them into the void.
But then I was thinking about what made a person a person because it's really confusing. Because some of the people didn't want to come into the void at all. Because without a world or a body then... that's bad for them I guess but I know lots of people without bodies or worlds and they are all people.
So I read a book that said a person was a person because of all their memories and experiences, that it's what we do and see and know that make us... us. But I knew I was Romeo even when I didn't have any memories at all. When everything was nothing I was still Romeo.
But then I wondered if I was. Because there's people here who look the same as each other and they are different people because they... had different lives I guess so am I the same Romeo as I was when I was alive? Because I don't remember any of that and all the things I did and my friends I made since then have made me me. But did that mean I wasn't really a person when I had no body and no memories?
It's really tricky to think about and I'm worried about all the people we rescued and if they are sad or scared about it because I guess it's different. If you have to live in the void 'cause your world was eaten then if you got snatched in the void but maybe can go home.
And that's different again then not knowing where you come from at all because I guess you can't really miss or be sad about somewhere that you don't even know about.
[Big Questions indeed. He sighed.] It's just really big. So I'm making cookies. If anyone is still awake they can come and get them, they'll be ready once they've been in the oven.
The video turns on into the kitchen, Romeo is a little bit away from the ICP, stirring something in a bowl but he glances over, as if to check that the ICP is recording.]
Um hello everyone. I hope I don't wake anyone up with talking so late but I was in bed and thinking really really hard about some things and my mind wouldn't go to sleep so I came to bake cookies but I'm still thinking and sometimes when you got lots of big questions in your head it's a good idea to talk about it.
[He gets closer, bowl in hand as he keeps mixing.]
I was thinking about Osiga and all the people we saved but also how we left all their bodies and I guess that's okay because we brought the bit that was properly them into the void.
But then I was thinking about what made a person a person because it's really confusing. Because some of the people didn't want to come into the void at all. Because without a world or a body then... that's bad for them I guess but I know lots of people without bodies or worlds and they are all people.
So I read a book that said a person was a person because of all their memories and experiences, that it's what we do and see and know that make us... us. But I knew I was Romeo even when I didn't have any memories at all. When everything was nothing I was still Romeo.
But then I wondered if I was. Because there's people here who look the same as each other and they are different people because they... had different lives I guess so am I the same Romeo as I was when I was alive? Because I don't remember any of that and all the things I did and my friends I made since then have made me me. But did that mean I wasn't really a person when I had no body and no memories?
It's really tricky to think about and I'm worried about all the people we rescued and if they are sad or scared about it because I guess it's different. If you have to live in the void 'cause your world was eaten then if you got snatched in the void but maybe can go home.
And that's different again then not knowing where you come from at all because I guess you can't really miss or be sad about somewhere that you don't even know about.
[Big Questions indeed. He sighed.] It's just really big. So I'm making cookies. If anyone is still awake they can come and get them, they'll be ready once they've been in the oven.
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However, the more pressing problem... he just told Romeo that Ortho was 16... but Ortho does not look that age. At all. Eehhhh, he's regretted this instantly... but... well... he doesn't know how to back out of this.
Ehhh, he shouldn't had gotten caught up in this all.] Hold on.
[Bringing up a holoscreen from his computer, Idia hesitated a moment as he typed away, then another pause, feeling he had to explain.] H-h-he, ah, he, um... Ortho doesn't... look his age. He looks.. younger. [And, well, as Romeo would see in a moment, he also looks not fully human, a few more taps and a holographic display of Ortho in his dorm body uniform appeared floating in the air. At first it seems like just a still image bobbing away, but it blinks now and then, the blue fire of his hair and chest flame moving in motion very similar to Idia's own hair.]
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The boy in the hologram looks older than Romeo and that's enough to reasonably be 'sixteen'. He also doesn't look the same as Idia, not exactly. Not really like a human but he couldn't name what he does look like. Maybe a robot?
Just different.] Wow! So he is your brother. He's got the same hair as you!
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It hurt.
It hurt so much.
He would look so much more like Idia if he was actually-
Idia stayed very still for a long moment, before waving the image away.] I'm leaving. [It's barely whispered out to Romeo. He needs to be alone. He needs not to think about this. He needs a distraction from the talk of death and what is life and what happens to people. He needs a distraction from...
Putting his half finished glass down on the table, Idia pushes himself away from it and starts towards the door. Sorry Romeo... he just... can't right now.]
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He watched him sadly, as he left. Should he go after him?
But if he wanted to be alone...
He watched him quietly as he left, feeling strange in his head and in his heart.]