voidtreckernet | Day 28

[It's late at night. Not quite the early morning but certainly later than you would normally see Romeo around.

The video turns on into the kitchen, Romeo is a little bit away from the ICP, stirring something in a bowl but he glances over, as if to check that the ICP is recording.]

Um hello everyone. I hope I don't wake anyone up with talking so late but I was in bed and thinking really really hard about some things and my mind wouldn't go to sleep so I came to bake cookies but I'm still thinking and sometimes when you got lots of big questions in your head it's a good idea to talk about it.

[He gets closer, bowl in hand as he keeps mixing.]

I was thinking about Osiga and all the people we saved but also how we left all their bodies and I guess that's okay because we brought the bit that was properly them into the void.

But then I was thinking about what made a person a person because it's really confusing. Because some of the people didn't want to come into the void at all. Because without a world or a body then... that's bad for them I guess but I know lots of people without bodies or worlds and they are all people.

So I read a book that said a person was a person because of all their memories and experiences, that it's what we do and see and know that make us... us. But I knew I was Romeo even when I didn't have any memories at all. When everything was nothing I was still Romeo.

But then I wondered if I was. Because there's people here who look the same as each other and they are different people because they... had different lives I guess so am I the same Romeo as I was when I was alive? Because I don't remember any of that and all the things I did and my friends I made since then have made me me. But did that mean I wasn't really a person when I had no body and no memories?

It's really tricky to think about and I'm worried about all the people we rescued and if they are sad or scared about it because I guess it's different. If you have to live in the void 'cause your world was eaten then if you got snatched in the void but maybe can go home.

And that's different again then not knowing where you come from at all because I guess you can't really miss or be sad about somewhere that you don't even know about.

[Big Questions indeed. He sighed.] It's just really big. So I'm making cookies. If anyone is still awake they can come and get them, they'll be ready once they've been in the oven.

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Well I don't think I feel hatred... I never felt that before.

[Now he has a whole lot of different things to worry about. Was he less of a person because he didn't hate people?

That was confusing.]

Oh?

[Isn't everyone full of loathing for something or someone or other? ~~Maybe his perspective is horribly, terribly skewed?~~]

Well, you're quite young, aren't you? You may simply have never had reason to feel hatred before. That doesn't necessarily mean you lack the capacity.

Maybe. [He frowned. He doesn't want to feel hatred. But this isn't exactly something he hasn't heard before.]

Mister Zetta says that a lot.

[Rezo has never actually spoken to Zetta, but recognizes the name mainly because the red team is small enough that anyone on it stands out.]

It's certainly not a pleasant emotion to experience. But such unpleasant things are simply another part of life.