Day 28 | Video

[myblueskies]

[It's late at night. Not quite the early morning but certainly later than you would normally see Romeo around.

The video turns on into the kitchen, Romeo is a little bit away from the ICP, stirring something in a bowl but he glances over, as if to check that the ICP is recording.]

Um hello everyone. I hope I don't wake anyone up with talking so late but I was in bed and thinking really really hard about some things and my mind wouldn't go to sleep so I came to bake cookies but I'm still thinking and sometimes when you got lots of big questions in your head it's a good idea to talk about it.

[He gets closer, bowl in hand as he keeps mixing.]

I was thinking about Osiga and all the people we saved but also how we left all their bodies and I guess that's okay because we brought the bit that was properly them into the void.

But then I was thinking about what made a person a person because it's really confusing. Because some of the people didn't want to come into the void at all. Because without a world or a body then... that's bad for them I guess but I know lots of people without bodies or worlds and they are all people.

So I read a book that said a person was a person because of all their memories and experiences, that it's what we do and see and know that make us... us. But I knew I was Romeo even when I didn't have any memories at all. When everything was nothing I was still Romeo.

But then I wondered if I was. Because there's people here who look the same as each other and they are different people because they... had different lives I guess so am I the same Romeo as I was when I was alive? Because I don't remember any of that and all the things I did and my friends I made since then have made me me. But did that mean I wasn't really a person when I had no body and no memories?

It's really tricky to think about and I'm worried about all the people we rescued and if they are sad or scared about it because I guess it's different. If you have to live in the void 'cause your world was eaten then if you got snatched in the void but maybe can go home.

And that's different again then not knowing where you come from at all because I guess you can't really miss or be sad about somewhere that you don't even know about.

[Big Questions indeed. He sighed.] It's just really big. So I'm making cookies. If anyone is still awake they can come and get them, they'll be ready once they've been in the oven.

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[myblueskies]

Um I can explain if you want. It's not very tricky. [Not really, even if it feels a bit big right now.]

I'm a shinki so that means I died in my world and then went to another one to be a weapon for a god and I don't got any memories of my life. Well I do have a couple but that was later.

So all the people from Osiga, they are still people and still themselves? That's good.

[wewillwewill]

[Elidibus gives the short explanation proper attention and a bit of thought afterward.]

Ah, I see. I can understand your concern in such circumstances.

[Elidibus might not have been a god's weapon, but he was Zodiark's heart. And lost a good chunk of memories about who he once was because of it. He can empathize, though maybe won't express it here on an open channel.]

The return of some memories gave you comfort, I hope? As for the methods that made you what you are, I know nothing of their truth. Yet if they're as straightforward as you say and your soul was simply brought from your world onto another, then from my perspective there would be no reason you are not the 'you' which you remember being.

[The Ascian isn't one to sign off on matters he can't observe and study and come to a decision on. Knowing nothing of Romeo 'before' or these gods' method of summoning their weapons, there isn't much more he can say. But he turns to something he has a touch more grasp on, nodding affirmatively.]

Yes. The Osigans are still themselves. Of course they may have a different view on the matter than I. And none can deny they have many struggles ahead of them.

[myblueskies]

A little bit I guess. They were a bit confusing and a bit sad and a bit scary but I think it's important I did learn them and remember them.

[So his soul had been moved, but he was still the same person. Maybe it was just that easy. He was just thinking about it too much.]

Yes it must be really sad for them, they are probably really scared. I wish we could help them more...

Determined Noises, Distant Progression. /o/

[wewillwewill]

[ Whether they get to help the Osigans or not will be determined by future choices, meeting and partings. Elidibus doesn't commiserate the desire to help the refugees any further than they have. But he does have a question for Romeo. ]

Were we given the opportunity, what would you like to do for them?

Re: Determined Noises, Distant Progression. /o/

[myblueskies]

I don't know... [It's tricky really. But...]

I guess it would be good to find a way that they make sure to always remember. To be able to have a bit of their world, even if they are far apart from it.

[wewillwewill]

[ It really is a tricky topic. ]

I see. This may give comfort to some, to have their world memorialized. Yet many might see it as a hardship to be reminded of what they lost.

[ It's a conversation he's had with someone else on the train, though Elidibus was well aware of the concern. ]

..If you were to meet the Osigans again, I would advise you get to know them. Their culture and how they would like memorialize or honor their world. We were given a small sample of their year's end festivities. But what do you know of how they actually live? It may be different from your own experiences.

[ There is a pause. ]

It may be the act of someone wanting to remember them will be far better received than a grand gesture.

[myblueskies]

Probably. Everyone lives really differently. [He knows that already, because everyone he has ever met has been from some different world with a different culture and a different way of doing things.

But if he saw them again he could ask.]

Sometimes it's nice just to have someone listen, if they want to talk about things as they were once.

[wewillwewill]

Yes, that is ever something to bear in mind. To learn their perspective...

[ There is a brief hesitation. He then continues quietly. ]

There are times you may find it refreshing to learn another's unique view on something you found very ordinary.

[ This moment of carefully choosing words and the tone he offers them in passes. What may be called a more brisk manner he continues. ]

But as you say, sometimes just the act of listening is enough.

[myblueskies]

I'll do my best then sir! I'll listen really carefully to learn about their unique views!

[He wanted to do his best after all, to help them and learn about all sorts of people.]

[wewillwewill]

[ The forthright attitude earns a faint smile of approval. Is it genuine? Who can say but there's probably no one that can claim Elidibus is steering Romeo in a bad way because of it. ]

Listen and acknowledge them for who they are, child. Come to understand them. You may not agree with their views, nor accept them as right. That remains your right. But should you still wish to help them if that time comes, that is the best guidance I can give you.

[ Well it seems the conversation is winding down. Though Elidibus pauses briefly before adding. ]

I may come by to see how you've fared with your baking. If we don't speak again, rest well.

[myblueskies]

Okay! You can have yummy food if you come here. [He's made plenty.

He smiled and waved, before going back to his baking.]

Thank youuuu!

[wewillwewill]

[ Elidibus will be by. Probably even grabs a random baking thing. Might even exchange ideas on baking and get insight in return. But that is another story. ]