Orchestra 31 | Voice

[springforth]

[She wishes they could just post text but here they are with just voice and video. So. Voice it is]

Hi, um, I was wondering if anyone on the train is like. A therapist? Or a counselor or something like that? It's nothing to do with the whole thing that happened recently, it's more that... Well I promised a friend back home that I'd speak to someone about this--thing that happened back home. But there's not really been a way to do that here. And it keeps coming back to bother me.

I guess failing any professionals, maybe just someone to talk to about it.

Um, I don't want to talk about what incident was on here but maybe I could try to explain in private? [Why do you have to talk about things to actually talk about things, this is the worst.]

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[controlsthedie]

[ Mort is totally holding out on her, but it seems to be a good thing instead of something to worry over, at least. But Mort will happily take a flower! ]

Not always the case. I have it under control. Normally. But my emotions... less so.

[ Speaking of emotions... ]

... I don't know what to do about Ryo. Not when he keeps getting angry whenever I try to show my concern. Makes me wonder if I should ever say anything about that again in the future.

[springforth]

I think...I think he thinks you doubt him. That he's incompetent. But I also think he's not used to not being the sole healer. [Persephone props her chin in her hand] And he has a savior complex. I think a lot of the train does, to be fair, it's what makes us good at saving worlds. But he takes it so awfully personally.

It makes him good at his job but also makes it hard for him to step outside it. Not unlike you.

[controlsthedie]

The difference is that there are others who can heal, help him, and he can make a choice.

[ Thanatos doesn't have that back home. Hermes and Charon can help ferry the dead to the Underworld, but they cannot cause the act of death. If they could, then death would have never stopped while Thanatos was locked in that chest.

It's different, and Ryo shouldn't try to have the same workload as a god. ]

And I do doubt him now.

[springforth]

I did point this out to him. That no one is counting on him to save everyone. No one is counting on him to save anyone but himself, actually, if he's not up to it.

[It's for the best that she doesn't know his thoughts, because she does have thoughts about that and always will. But they're not here to argue about it]

I won't tell you not to doubt him. But I do think he's not incompetent, just--I think he feels like he has to prove his worth.

[controlsthedie]

[ He shakes his head. ]

I don't I doubt his healing skills. I doubt him acting upon his limits. And that means I can't trust he's in a condition to help using his power. He'll say he's fine when he's not and heal regardless.

[ Thanatos huffs, frustrated. ]

He lectures others but doesn't do what he says himself.