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YONDU UDONTA ([personal profile] yondu) wrote in [community profile] voidtreckernet2021-11-26 07:02 pm

Orchestra Day 14

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[Yondu's opting for a video post though he did consider audio. But he really wants to put out there how important this is to him. He needs help and he can finally damn well practice what he preaches and ask for it.]

[Okay, deep, uneasy exhale before explaining.]

I uh.... before I showed up here, the same day even, there was a mutiny aboard my ship. Had a buncha folks decide they didn't like I was takin' cheaper jobs to keep from doin' stuff I weren't comfortable with. I was usually able to make excuses- we still made plenty but a few outspoken bastards were real upset I didn't always pick the options with more in our pockets, and then my first mate got jealous. Called me out in front of everyone. 'Caused a shitstorm. [He's a little distant in describing that.]

He didn't know how bad it'd get. The traitors... they uh... Hell... Alright if you're a kid or you don't gotta deal with a lotta death, just turn this off. Get the hell outa here. It ain't for you. [He takes a moment for them to do that if they care to. Alright? Good. Carrying on.] I was detained proper at the time. Couldn't use my arrow, couldn't fight, too hurt to get loose. They shoved 'em one by one out an airlock an' I couldn't save 'em. We're talkin' a hundred plus men dead, one by one. It was not just a few. Just left to float like garbage thrown out a window and they laughed about it and mocked 'em as they watched 'em go.

[There's a moment of shaky-breathed anger, but, you know, what's done is done. Assholes what done it are dead now, they cain't do it to anyone else or use his ship to go make the universe an even worse place or harass his family. He's good.] Dyin' in space is like freezin' and drownin' at the same time. Every moment of it hurts 'cause you feel your outside freezin' in, an' at some point you know even if you was saved the life left in ya wouldn't be worth it. [He can say that from experience. There's a little bit where you know how bad the damage is.] Almost three decades some of those men had been with me. Good and bad. I didn't make a lotta friends but they did mean somethin' to me. And someone gave me the idea maybe I could put 'em to rest if I could do somethin' memorialwise. I don't want the last thoughts directed at 'em to be their own crewmates bein' happy about 'em dyin'.

Ravagers... when we die, usually we're remembered. If our bodies cain't be picked up, we're toasted by our crew. If our bodies are there, we're put in the ship's engine. Turned to stardust, get to travel forever. And the one that's usually for captains is a ship flying its Colors- you do this big light show. Well, no crew here besides myself to drink to 'em, and their bodies ain't anywhere to be found [not to mention a hundred-some people is a lot] so I figured I'd ask anyone that can do lights an' illusions if they'd help me out to fly them the Colors whenever we're at a stop where our lives don't depend on it and there's a sky overhead. They weren't captains but they was loyal enough. I don't know if I could pay ya, but I been sittin' on knowin' what happened to 'em and I ain't been able to think of a way to really make it right.
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[personal profile] nell_of_soulwood 2021-12-02 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
I'd like to do that actually. Especially since I felt so useless on the last mission.

And, well, back home I've got John's guns. I'm a darned good shot, you know. I feel safer with them. But it would be good to know more.
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[personal profile] nell_of_soulwood 2021-12-02 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I'd like that. It would make me feel a little more secure - safe in my own skin, you know?

Can we get guns from the train?

[Now she was torn. She and Nozomi had talked about her asking for a cat, both for companionship - since she didn't think having a hunting dog on the train would be fair to it, but a cat could thrive pretty near anywhere - and to see if she'd retained any of her animal communication skills from Diagad.]
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[personal profile] nell_of_soulwood 2021-12-03 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
I'll have to think on it. I was kinda thinking of getting a cat. See on Diagad I could talk - communicate - with the animals and I was wondering if I still could and I miss my dogs something fierce, but it wouldn't be right to ask a dog to be all cooped up here.

But a gun might be handy.

[But her heart might be maybe on getting something to love on a little... Maybe she could save and get both... In the meantime...]

Meanwhile, I'd like to learn, if you don't mind being patient with me. Least here I'm not in long skirts. That'll make it easier.
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[personal profile] nell_of_soulwood 2021-12-03 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
I think I have enough for a medium animal and a gun, but I'd have to think on what I'd want anyway. I'm real good with a shotgun or rifle, but for them I need something to brace myself with so they may not be a good choice for here.

I think you're right. I'll wait and we'll see what happens. And learning to fight and defend myself some is probably better right now anyway.