[Video] Kazoo 16

[ayao]

Forgive me for being...selfish...

And I warn you, the subject matter of my question might be sensitive...

[But why not make this inquiry here rather than in his world where it would surely bring negative repercussions.]

What are your thoughts on two men being in a relationship? [He doesn't dare say married, but he is drawn to the idea.] Do you perceive it as...wrong? Should the men instead continue their respective lines with wives?

[Heirs are important. Yet can they not be had in other ways? Of course said ways are illegal and immoral in the land he knows.]

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[azurebichen]

[he's being suspicious by this post]

Marriage is not for you, let alone the idea of producing heirs. [which is a horrifying thought by itself]

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[ayao]

You might be right. [His future says otherwise, unfortunately.] I can't help what I want.

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[azurebichen]

You hurt my brother in my time, along with many others. If I'm following your train of thought, which is scandalous, you're going to hurt more too?

What have you done this time now?

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[ayao]

I have not done those deeds yet. [If that is of any comfort.] I do not intend to hurt anyone.

[He is just madly in love with your brother.]

[azurebichen]

[well, he's not going to approve and with the other Lan Wangji being pained and vulnerable by the loss of his husband, he has to stand up for his brother, and gaining Lan Wangji's approval is...near impossible for most]

Not yet no, but my brother is still pained by everything including what our version of you did to him. Why can't you give him peace?

[ayao]

[Yes, he is aware of that. But he can't stop what he feels or what he wants. Xichen is the one who must decide - and he has. Except Meng Yao keeps making mistakes and complicating matters.]

I cannot help how I feel; I cannot help being drawn to him, either. I want to bring him peace. It nauseates me to think of what I did -

You and he have had years to learn...to understand... I'm still reeling from my future.

[azurebichen]

[Meng Yao if you have a heart, which of course you do and Xichen is the one to nurture it, then Lan Wangji is the Lan brother who has no problem stomping on it]

My brother gave you so many chances. In the many futures, you squandered his trust. Not to mention Jin Ling's, your nephew too.

I will try to understand since peace is what I desire. [he'll give him that much, just an inch for the peace on the train] But don't give false hope.

[ayao]

My feelings are not false. [He wants to argue; he wants to point out that he is not that man yet, but Wangji is right.] And I know I am undeserving of him.

At least as I am. I will be deserving when I show you the man I will become.