[Video] Kazoo 16

[ayao]

Forgive me for being...selfish...

And I warn you, the subject matter of my question might be sensitive...

[But why not make this inquiry here rather than in his world where it would surely bring negative repercussions.]

What are your thoughts on two men being in a relationship? [He doesn't dare say married, but he is drawn to the idea.] Do you perceive it as...wrong? Should the men instead continue their respective lines with wives?

[Heirs are important. Yet can they not be had in other ways? Of course said ways are illegal and immoral in the land he knows.]

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[weifinder]

Good.

( Which he says, while holding up a stopping hand: )

Don't protect. Support. He needs support, not you deciding what protection means. Make decisions with him, not for him. Don't actively try to hurt him. Apologise when you hurt him anyway, because we all hurt the ones we care about without meaning to.

( He pauses, long, and stares at Meng Yao through the ICP. Says, eventually: )

A wise woman once told me there are two phrases you can't get through life without saying and meaning. Thank you, and I'm sorry.

( Another pause, and narrowed eyes. )

Only say either one when you mean it. Not when you think you should say it, A-Yao, but when it's true.

( Then, waving a hand, and flashing something closer to an actual smile: )

Being loyal to him means accepting all of us, too, so that'll be fun in the dining car. No murdering, no backstabbing, and endless apologies to Jin Ling because out of everyone here, you owe him the most. Even now. Even before you've done anything. As for the man in question ( who they continue not to name;) he can withstand scrutiny. Let him.

[ayao]

I do mean them... [With Xichen, always. With others? Well, that depends. He is very good at customer service and sometimes he just likes people being nice and smiling at him. Yes, it is that simple.]

I didn't know about Jin Ling. [And that too feels awful. By now, his eyes are red-rimmed and suspiciously wet.] The more I learn, the more I wish to bury my future self in the ground.

[Hatred has always led to anxiety and paranoia for him. Yet those final words do make their way through the din that is his thoughts screaming at him.]

Do you like Lan Wangji being judged for loving you? Don't you want to intervene? I'm sure he never asks that of you. [He is like his brother. Both of the Lans will suffer in silence.]

[weifinder]

( If this. Blank stare isn't obvious enough.

Just what.................. what judgement for......................... what love are you talking about, Meng Yao? Confused cat noises over here, that is not the word he'd use for their deep abiding knowing, that word is so small and so peculiar. )

Mah, you've got some weird idea on things for a guy who hasn't lived through most them yet...

( Then he shakes a finger at him. )

Lan Zhan chooses his position, and I stand by his side. That's a decision we both choose to make. Who is judging him for nonsense like what you're talking about? Whatever, whatever, ignoring your mouth spilling out all these unnecessary things, I'd laugh at anyone who thinks their judgement matters in his opinion.

[ayao]

[How does he say...

Welcome to my world? Without seeming petty? No, Meng Yao doesn't apologize nor look ashamed.]

Words can hurt. They can sink deep and turn into knives and swords. Someone can bleed for years from a simple statement and you would never know it.

[weifinder]

... That's what you're choosing to go with? Plenty of things hurt, A-Yao. It's about what you do with the pain, and how you let it affect you, or not. How you take responsibility for yourself, and how you learn to let go what other people throw your way.

[ayao]

I do enjoy you sitting on your horse, Young Lord. [Saaarcasm.] Your view of lesser men must be vivid and clear!

[But. No. He reins himself in.]

My actions are late, but I have never called my accusers liars. I believe them and I take responsibility.

[weifinder]

Even your insults just feel lacking at this age...

( He's actually sighing over this, but follows that up with a shake of his head. )

The unfair reality is you don't know me, and I know what you have the potential to become, A-Yao, but really! I'm so proud! Outright sarcasm and I didn't even have to muss your hair for it!

( He prefers less of the façade, and thus, is happy in a grim way. )

Take responsibility going forward. If it hurts, or if it doesn't hurt. That's all I've pointed toward and asked for this whole time, even when you were being rude enough to ask me to kill you if you strayed.

( He's got one kill switch, and it is Threatens Family. )