[Video] Kazoo 16

[ayao]

Forgive me for being...selfish...

And I warn you, the subject matter of my question might be sensitive...

[But why not make this inquiry here rather than in his world where it would surely bring negative repercussions.]

What are your thoughts on two men being in a relationship? [He doesn't dare say married, but he is drawn to the idea.] Do you perceive it as...wrong? Should the men instead continue their respective lines with wives?

[Heirs are important. Yet can they not be had in other ways? Of course said ways are illegal and immoral in the land he knows.]

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[ayao]

Being...without him...

That hurts far more. [He murmurs the words, shuddering.] I don't care if people are upset. I would stand against them all. But I wonder if it's fair to ask him to do the same?

[If Xichen cares for him enough, there won't be any choice in the matter.]

I try too hard too. I think too much and then I make situations worse. In the end, what will be will be. I can only offer myself.

[sciencegirl]

I think realistically it's fairer to let him have the choice and don't decide for him. It's up to him whether he'll be okay with it, and if he's not, it seems like there are a lot of people here that would help you.

But if he is, you could both be happy. A little stressed, maybe, but everyone is a little stressed in one way or another.

[ayao]

You have a gift. [She is able to phrase his racing thoughts so simply.] I will leave it in his hands. All I can do is love him. Either way, he is deserving of my loyalty and he will have it for the rest of my life.

[sciencegirl]

Thank you. [She gets it wrong often enough that what he says is nice to hear.]

I know this is a very small population, but it's large enough to be considered a village. There are children and adults and elders. It's one where any type of love is accepted.

Maybe it would be okay to think of yourself as being a part of here instead of where these other rules apply?

[ayao]

...I like that idea. [But it absolves him in a way that he doesn't deserve.] I mustn't forget my world. There are things I must remember so I do not make the same errors again.

[By errors, he means murders - and all the emotions that preceded said murders.]

However this can be a second home.

[sciencegirl]

I've had second homes. I think that works nicely.

[She's got friends who have done some very questionable things, so she'd consider it noble he wanted to account for and consider his actions.]

And maybe this way you won't make new errors. But even if you did I think a lot of people would be there to help you if you asked for it.

[ayao]

[There are those on the train who won't let him forget. Which is for his own good - and theirs!]

If I make the same mistakes, I expect those from my world to take the proper measures to stop me.

[i.e. by killing him.]

[sciencegirl]

Hopefully, if you keep talking to people you won't make new mistakes, either. Just remember that everyone needs help sometimes, okay? A lot of people forget that. Especially ones who haven't always had support when they needed it.

[Like the type of support that says it's okay to love anyone if they love you back.]

[ayao]

I will...try...to ask for help. When I am feeling -

[Scared, anxious, paranoid - all the things he is accustomed to hiding very very deep until he does something irredeemably evil.]

I will remember.