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voidtreckernet2021-04-01 06:27 am
sos_pilot) wrote in voidtreckernet2021-04-01 06:27 am
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[ The video is late at night - not too late to wake a bunch of people up, but it's definitely different than Della's usual videos where it's an earlier time. Not to mention she kinda... looks like hell. Bags under her eyes, all the usual signs of exhaustion - but it's more than that. She actually looks emotionally beat up. ]
... Hey, guys. I figured I owed a bunch of you an explanation about my behavior last mission. Look, I know a lot of the time I'm all "woo, adventure, let's beat up monsters, yeah!" everywhere we go, but last time I was more... out of control. Not listening to anyone, still trying to fight even when I was literally falling apart... and I am sorry. I shouldn't have to make you guys worry more than you already have to, especially in the middle of a dangerous fight.
... Here's the deal. All of you are amazing, you have to know that on some level. You've got super powers, you've got metal bodies, you've got magic, and even of those of you who are about to say "Oh, I'm just some ordinary human" - you're not. So many of you have amazing abilities with your weapons, brilliant minds that have led kingdoms and companies, you're all wonderful, and should be so proud of yourself. I'm proud of each and every single one of you.
... And all I can do is land a solid punch every now and then. Back home, I... I was on a team. My family. They all had their own special talents too, and when I finally came home, maybe some part of me wondered... if they really needed me after all, since they'd done so well without me for ten years. And now, here I am, and I can't even do the one thing I at least KNOW I'm good at, being a pilot. Here, I'm just... me.
[ She sighs, taking off her pilot's cap to run a hand through her hair. ]
Dang, I didn't mean to ramble. Just... I'm sorry. I'll try to make sure it won't happen again.
... 'Night, guys.
[ For anyone wanting to check in on her, she can be found in the lower-carriage of the library, wordlessly thumbing through her copy of the Junior Woodchuck Guide, though not really reading it. ]
... Hey, guys. I figured I owed a bunch of you an explanation about my behavior last mission. Look, I know a lot of the time I'm all "woo, adventure, let's beat up monsters, yeah!" everywhere we go, but last time I was more... out of control. Not listening to anyone, still trying to fight even when I was literally falling apart... and I am sorry. I shouldn't have to make you guys worry more than you already have to, especially in the middle of a dangerous fight.
... Here's the deal. All of you are amazing, you have to know that on some level. You've got super powers, you've got metal bodies, you've got magic, and even of those of you who are about to say "Oh, I'm just some ordinary human" - you're not. So many of you have amazing abilities with your weapons, brilliant minds that have led kingdoms and companies, you're all wonderful, and should be so proud of yourself. I'm proud of each and every single one of you.
... And all I can do is land a solid punch every now and then. Back home, I... I was on a team. My family. They all had their own special talents too, and when I finally came home, maybe some part of me wondered... if they really needed me after all, since they'd done so well without me for ten years. And now, here I am, and I can't even do the one thing I at least KNOW I'm good at, being a pilot. Here, I'm just... me.
[ She sighs, taking off her pilot's cap to run a hand through her hair. ]
Dang, I didn't mean to ramble. Just... I'm sorry. I'll try to make sure it won't happen again.
... 'Night, guys.
[ For anyone wanting to check in on her, she can be found in the lower-carriage of the library, wordlessly thumbing through her copy of the Junior Woodchuck Guide, though not really reading it. ]
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[ No wonder he'd been feeling a little off toward the end. He felt a surge of guilt for not being there. ]
Don't repeat that I admitted this, but we're all flawed. Failing at your area of expertise once doesn't mean you've completely invalidated yourself---it took me a while to figure that one out. It means you were stressed, overwhelmed...and with that last mission, who wasn't?
If you ever want to come with us on Orange, we're usually solving puzzles. But you're going to recover, and you're going to be fine.
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[ There's a weak smile at the end of the sentence. ]
... I appreciate it, Seto.
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Mind if I drop by?
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->action
[ And he arrives at the library, sitting beside her with a thoughtful expression. He's radiating warmth and concern. ]
Want to talk about what happened out there, or skip to the part where I try to pull you out of this?
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[ She puts the guidebook aside. ]
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[ He sighs and scoots a little closer. ]
Thought I'd remind you that you're part of a family here. When one stumbles, the others pick them up---and we can pitch in and cover for an absence for a while. We adapt, we step up.
But it's better with you here, Della. And I know I'm not the only one you've helped. Let us help you too.
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[ She lowers her head. Part of her agony is missing her flesh and blood family. Her uncle, her brother, her precious boys. ]
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[ He sighs deeply. ]
You're allowed to miss them. To feel it. But I'm going to feel it with you---that's not a threat, or me saying it's a burden, it's not.
[ He pauses. ]
Sometimes you need someone to sit in the dark with you.
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[ She lightly touches his arm. ]
sorry, done!
[ And he pulls Della into a tight hug, squeezing her fondly. She has to know. ]
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But it's hard not to see the tears welling up in her eyes. ]
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Take as long as you need, got it?
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[ She can't imagine moving or feeling anything else, right here and now. ]