[ He takes in another breath and then steps over closer, still ignoring the water bottle and hugs Tony tight, staying silent for a long moment while he just appreciates that Tony is still there and he can still go to him for things. ]

I don't sleep.

[ He finally admits-he knows Tony is aware of this as it's not really a secret. ]

I say that I can't sleep maybe because it's true and I know that that's pretty normal for kids that have been through a pretty serious trauma-but also I don't want to sleep sometimes. I mean, I say that I don't want the nightmares but is that just an excuse to get away with hurting myself? Because that's what it is-it's self harm.