No, that's-that's exactly it-I think. I mean... I'm upset so I wouldn't really say I'm numb to it but my mind is trying to be? Like I said, I don't really know how to explain it.

But I'll uh... I'll keep going. This isn't the first or even the second time I've lost someone important to me so while it might take awhile-I know that I'll find away keep going.