[Guilt pricks through Lapis' insides. This girl tries so often to help . . . which means that Lapis has so often seemed as though she needs it.]

[That's not a pleasant thought. And she's not sure what to do with it.]

It . . . would be good if that's the only option. But it isn't a lot of water.

[She's been in that situation before -- where there isn't enough water to destroy what she needs to destroy, not enough water to save--]

[She shakes the thought away.]

And . . . it would be nice if I could make a place that's just my own.

[Where she doesn't have to worry about being seen. But that's not something she says aloud.]